Friday, November 24, 2006

Good Luck Or Misfortune??







Today I went shopping downtown. I thought I looked pretty good. I had on brushed cotton chocolate brown jeans, a mocha brown long sleeved skateboarder top, with a soft yellow fleece vest. I also had an Italian wool cloth scarf, brown, green and rust striped, wrapped around my neck. Accented with brown and rust, Italian leather loafers.

It was one of those days when all your stars are lined up and everything goes well. People in stores are helpful and pleasant. You find something you have been looking for for ages. All's right with the world. (Those sales people can either make you or break you)

Anyhoo, I was in this fancy dancy store when I happened to glance at my left arm. On it was something I didn't recognize at first. Was it food? Did I bump into something? NOPE!!

It was pigeon poop! On my arm!

Dress me up, can't take me anywhere.

BTW
My last post was rather personal. Blame it on the chocolate vodka and orange juice.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

I Love This Painting


It is so how I feel.

Method To My Madness

My previous post had to do with a comment on a fellow blogger's post. It was in regards to sexual abuse. He suggested the punishment should reflect in gradations to the sexual assualt that occurred. I personnally don't agree with that.
Like insurance for example, if you lose a finger, leg , arm or whatever, you receive different amounts of compensation. ($)

In sexual abuse, you have to take into account who's doing the abusing. I was fondled(sleeping) by a person(relative) that was a father figure to me. It was more devastating to me than when I was raped by a friend's friend. This is a different time from the one below.

I think I have been sexually molested more than your average person. Always when I have been sleeping(4 or 5 times) or incapacitated. I was remembering today how I was a victim of date rape. It was a blip on my memory radar. There was this guy that liked me but I wasn't interested. One nite my girlfriend's??? and I were out partying and the next thing I remember I was waking up in this guy's bed. He slipped something in my drink, I would never have been there under normal circumstances. The last thing I remembered was being in the bar.

I have survived these situations by telling myself that they might have abused my body but not my soul. My body is only a vessel.

"The body is mortal, but the person dwelling in the body is immortal and immeasurable."
- Bhagavad Gita

What really gets me, is that I'm not "out there". No sexual innuendoes, no overt clothing,
I was just a really sweet, nice person.

Monday, November 20, 2006

On The Lite Side

Adam was hanging around the garden of Eden feeling very lonely.
So, God asked him, "What's wrong with you?"

Adam said he didn't have anyone to talk to. God said that He was going to make Adam a companion and that it would be a woman.

He said, "This pretty lady will gather food for you, she will cook for you, and when you discover clothing, she will wash it for you.

She will always agree with every decision you make and she will not nag you, and will always be the first to admit she was wrong when you've had a disagreement.

She will praise you!

She will bear your children, and never ask you to get up in the middle of the night to take care of them.

"She will NEVER have a headache and will freely give you love and passion whenever you need it."

Adam asked God, "What will a woman like this cost?"

God replied, "An arm and a leg."

Then Adam asked, "What can I get for a rib?"
Of course the rest is history......................

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Show and Tell



It's not really fair to tell you my story and not show what I look like.

This is a picture of my friend and I just before I left Toronto. I don't like getting my picture taken so I don't have many.

That's me on the right.

Gone Fishing

The lady of rant is not around today so I am going to write in her place.

Yesterday was a pretty cool day. The weather was gorgeous, 20 celsius. I have started doing at least one thing each day that I have been procrastinating on. Today I went to the gym. I joined this gym a year ago last april. BUT I never went once. Each month I said, oh, I'll go next month. Well, the year came to an end and they renewed me and debted my account without my permission. I called and explained, the guy said no problem and told me if I ever wanted to join again to let him know. Maybe he could work something out.

I went in yesterday, the guy was gone but the new guy looked up my records and said sure, let's work something out. I was expecting knocking a few bucks off my memberhip.
He said, "how does this sound"? We'll give you a free trial membership for six months, upgrade you to the high end (membership) , then we'll sit down and talk again in six months.

Sounded pretty damn good to me! The high end you get all the fancy stuff and pampering.
I told him I was pleased and it was more than I had anticipated.
He said it was because I didn't demand anything or have that attitude.

Today's mission. Go out to dinner with my older sister that I have been putting off for ages.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Two Mints in One

I really have two separate personas.

The confident, funny, intelligent one.
And.........the introverted, sad, lonely one.

When I moved here to this city, I had been on antidepressants for about two years. I didn't have a physician, so I went to a drop in clinic for my meds until I found one. I found one that was close to work and asked him how much longer I could expect to be on them. I'll never forget his answer. "Probably for life", he said. That freaked me out so much I took myself off them.(Gradually of course). Well needless to day, that wasn't one of my best decisions.

Well, then I got another Dr. and this one seems to be more compatible with me. The only thing is that here, the Dr.'s are so busy, they don't have the time to spend with you. I bascially tell my doctor what I think is best and he gives it to me. Just because I'm a professional, doesn't mean I'm your equal. I know about teeth for gods sake, not my mental health.

I do know how I feel, and that is how I monitor myself. Great diagnosis technique huh?
Common sense.

I took this week of to assess myself and start some sort of therapy. This blog is going to be part of it.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

The Real Me

No more fluff and pretending to be happy. I'm not. For five years now, I have been in an abyss. I want out. Now.

Starting today I am going to use this blog as my personal therapy. I can't get any medical help in this god forsaken town so I have to do it myself.

Commenting on someone else's blog yesterday about abuse made me realize this is what I have to do. Vent, rage, let it all out what I have been holding in for years.

This will not be reading material for anyone looking for happy thoughts, so I suggest you move on.

Monday, November 13, 2006

MY HERO

THE SWIFFER


If this thing lived and breathed, I would MARRY it!!!

If you have tile, hardwood floors and a dog that sheds.....this is a godsend! It's the answer to all my prayers. (not that I was really praying) :)





Brooms and dust mops (ugh... gross), don't quite get the job done .

This little miracle worker has cloths (wet or dry) that you just throw away. No fuss no muss! I think I must have been living in a cave or something because it has apparently been around for years. Anyway, I bought this today and I'm as happy as can be.

Funny how something so simple can make you so happy. I'm a tidy person, and I love my Rosey but.....the dog hairs were getting to me. Also, I HATE dust!!!!!!


PS I also got one of those sticky thingy's that roll and get the hair of your clothes.

Can you tell I'm a newbie as a dog owner?





Sunday, November 12, 2006


Nova Scotia’s children are about to get a safety boost, as the province kicks off a campaign to raise awareness about a new law requiring kids up to age nine to buckle up in booster seats.


Beginning Jan. 1, anyone transporting children under the age of nine, unless they’re more than 145 centimetres tall, or four-foot-nine, will be required to make sure those children are properly secured in an infant seat, child seat or booster seat.

"Compared to using a seatbelt alone, booster seats have been shown to reduce the risk of severe head injuries and other severe injuries . . . by up to four times," said Dr. Natalie Yanchar, medical director of IWK Trauma Care.

My Query

What about adults who are under four-foot-nine?

Hell, they're out there driving the gawd damn vehicle!!!!

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Rosey's Birthday Party
For her birthday dinner, Rosey dined on
Gourmet Homestyle Cowboy Cookout.

This was made with tender chunks of beef, sweet potatoes, carrots, green beans and granny smith apples.

It must be real good because she wouldn't even look at me when I was taking her picture. (no matter how hard I tried) :)

Friday, November 10, 2006

Dreams and What Do They Mean?

For years I have a reccuring dream and last nite I had it again. I have to go to the bathroom. It's always the same..... I'm at a party or club and have to use the public toilet. The facilities are less then pristine, in fact down right filthy. Every stall is either taken or overflowing with shit.
Sometimes the floors are flooded with urine and I'm trying to tiptoe around the mess. The toilets are also raised in the stalls, like on a pedestal.

Princess says she has the same dream. In hers, she once peed in the sink because of the condition of the toilets. I have yet to haul my ass up to the sink, but then again, she is more creative than me.


Tomorrow is Rosey's birthday!!

Thursday, November 09, 2006

FYI
INQUIRING MINDS WHO WANT TO KNOW!!!

A WEE PEEK UNDER A SCOTSMAN'S KILT...
Tacky? Or poor taste?
I'm a Sagittarius, what more can I say..........

Either way, on Wednesday I went to a travel agency to pick up tickets for Princess. I REALLY want her home for Christmas and wasn't taking any chances on last minute shite.

The agent I was dealing with was pleasant, and we got into a conversation about Ontario. I mentioned I was from Toronto and she said she was from Penetang, Ontario. Well......I then started to tell her my only knowledge of Penetanguishene was the psychiatric mental institution there.
An orthodontist, down the street from our offfice woke up one morning, and came out of his house with guns blazing. He shot his three small sons and his wife. His wife and one son survived. They sent him to Penetanguishene for five years and then he came home to live with his wife and one remaining son. I'm still baffled about that one. Jeesuz, wasn't she afraid?? I would be!

Then, I told her about one of our patient's. Ralph, an eighteen year old boy who woke up one sunday morning, shot his mother in her bed, then slit her throat. He also got sent to Penetanguishene .

The agent sitting next to my agent was listening, and must have thought I was crazy. She kept looking over and was shaking her head. I don't know what gets in to me, but .........I just talk about stuff that I have experienced and I find relevant to the conversation.

In my mind anyway. Maybe I shouldn't be so explicate, some people might not appreciate it.

PS All my stories are true, I couldn't make this shit up.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

One of The Perks of My Job

I meet so many people thru my job and the fascinating history that goes along with them.

For Example:

Yesterday
(Let me try to get this straight)

I had this lovely lady in yesterday (eighty-five years young). Her father died when she was a little girl and her mother had to care for her and her sister all alone. She (her mother) went from a clerk at Eatons, to a receptionist in a doctor's office, to the social secretary for the lieutenant-governor's office. (She served under 5) She was there when Queen Elizabeth, still a princess, paid a visit to the province. I won't mention who, but a very important premier's wife attempted to speak to the princess at dinner (under the influence of alcohol) and the princess stared straight ahead, hearing nothing. Protocol says that you don't speak to royalty until they speak to you.

Her son(my patient) is an English Professor at a Canadian university, her daughter-in-law is a playwright that received, "The Order of Canada" this year. She was there and says Michaelle Jean made them feel like they were in her home.

I'M NOT FINISHED YET.........

Her aunt, (her mother's sister) was Mabel Bell's secretary. She was asked to help with a party Alexander was having, entertaining men from the British Admiralty, interested in his Hydrofoil, HD-4.

Never mind all that, she ended up getting engaged to one of the men and they were to be married in London. Her own father couldn't make it, so Alexander Graham Bell gave her away at the wedding.

How cool is that?

Saturday, November 04, 2006

On The Other Hand.........

Princess e-mailed this to A.. , who in turn e-mailed it to her parents, and they are not the least bit impressed with Princess.......


A truly Canadian Apology to the USA, courtesy of Rick Mercer from This Hour Has 22 Minutes, CBC Television: (2003)

On behalf of Canadians everywhere I'd like to offer an apology to the United States of America.

We haven't been getting along very well recently and for that, I am truly sorry. I'm sorry we called George Bush a moron. He is a moron, but it wasn't nice of us to point it out.
If it's any consolation, the fact that he's a moron shouldn't reflect poorly on the people of America.

After all, it's not like you actually elected him. ( Remember dated 2003)

I'm sorry about our softwood lumber. Just because we have more trees than you, doesn't give us the right to sell you lumber that's cheaper and better than your own.
It would be like if, well, say you had ten times the television audience we did and you flood our market with great shows, cheaper than we could produce.

I know you'd never do that.

I'm sorry we beat you in Olympic hockey. In our defence I guess our excuse would be that our team was much, much, much, much better than yours. As word of apology, please accept all of our NHL teams which, one by one, are going out of business and moving to your fine country.

I'm sorry about our waffling on Iraq. I mean, when you're going up against a crazed dictator, you want to have your friends by your side.
I realize it took more than two years before you guys pitched in against Hitler, but that was different. Everyone knew he had weapons.

I'm sorry we burnt down your White House during the War of 1812. I see you've rebuilt it! It's very nice.

I'm sorry for Alan Thicke, Shania Twain, Celine Dion, Loverboy, that song from Sheriff that ends with a really high-pitched long note.

Your beer. I know we had nothing to do with your beer, but we feel your pain.

And finally on behalf of all Canadians, I'm sorry that we're constantly apologizing for things in a passive-aggressive way which is really a thinly veiled criticism.
I sincerely hope that you're not upset over this. Because we've seen what you do to countries you get upset with.


Please don't shoot the messenger. :(
You Couldn't Make This Story Up

Princess tells me I would really like this friend of hers that she has met in her program. A.. is from California and says it like it is. She is over six feet tall and quite a force to be reckoned with, I gather.

Anyway, she was going to school in England at the time. She was studying in her apartment one day and outside there was a traffic jam with no one going anywhere. One particular motorist would not let up blaring his horn. NONSTOP.

She finally came out, went to his car window and explained that this was her home and she was trying to study, would he please lay off.
She walked away and as she did, he laid on the horn louder.

She went inside and came out with a pen and paper, went behind his car and started writing.
He then started looking nervously in his rear view mirror and asked what she was doing.
"I'm taking down your license plate and I have a friend who will get your address, then I am going to go to your home and blare my horn outside for as long as you have outside mine", she replied.

He then called her a " f**king c**t.

He had his two female children in the backseat of his car at the time.

A.., leaned in the passenger window (remember she's six feet tall) and said to the girls, "don't ever, ever, in your life, let a man call you a c**t".

Daddy didn't have anything to say after that.

PS If there's one word that I hate, it's that. Princess knows this and is why she shared this story with me.

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

Just Say Gingivitis

There was a Canada wide contest for those dental offices who wished to participate called "Just say gingivitis". The main prize was a trip and the three secondary ones were for three tv's.
One of our patients won a tv and this is a letter thanking us. The couple in question live in the country in a trailer park with no telephone and are the sweetest people you would want to meet. He does beautiful wood carvings made from the bark of trees and now does ones made from old pieces of telephone poles. Wood spirits he calls his art, they are really something to see.

Anyway here is the letter verbatim......

Dear Dr.'s.........

I just wanted you to have an update on the TV prize. It came by courier on Oct. 16. We hoped it was "mostly box" but it's all TV! They said in the "Congradulation" letter that it was 23" but it is a 26" Panasonic LCD Viera. The hole in our entertaiment unit is old style square and the tv is long and on a pedestal. We rearranged the living room (all six feet of it) so the tv would be eye level and on something solid (slim but heavy). The room looked like a couple of college students dumped their various articles and piled the furniture on one side. I'm surprised the RV didn't tip over. So last saturday D*** took the cirrcular saw to the ET unit and cut it down to half. Now
A) The tv is eye level in front of us. B) We have more light and view. C) We don't have to look at the paint can in the corner. D) We can watch paint dry on that big TV. It took us days to set the picture via remote (three choices).
We don't know all it can do because we're not on digital cable and not frequent DVD renters.
That's a whole world we don't understand. We've never won anything let alone something more valuable than our car. I feel like putting bars on the doors and windows. We should insure the "TV" and have the RV and car as "riders".
Thanks for entering us in the contest and see you in 2007.


What the hell is sweeter than that? I just had to share.
Sometimes good things happen to good people. I wish more often though.......

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Photos as Promised

I wasn't able to take the pictures myself but thanks to the kindness of others, here are some.


Fou, Budda, Gallager and I think that's Spike's ass.

George(Fou's owner), Fou and Budda (enlarge the photo and check out Fou's eyes)

Pam (Gallager's owner), Gallager,Budda, and Rosey
Rosey, Fou and Spike

Rosey
Fou
It was fun and I (we) got to meet a lot of people that I would never normally encounter. Everyone has contacted me via e-mail and want to get together again . I think it's fate's way of getting me out and about again.

Que sera sera.....................

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Part II

I New This Was Going To Happen

I had a bad feeling when Princess told me about this Brit. Call it mother's intuition or call it the fact that I am a "sensitive". Whatever the case, it turned out the way I expected.

Someone got hurt and it wasn't Princess. I warned her about getting involved too quickly but she said it was cool, he understood when she said, "we'll see".

Well he didn't see!!! He fell, hook, line and sinker.

Last nite she was going to have dinner with him (at his place) and give him the news. I was worried about his attitude, as he had already suspected and told her (previously) that his mother would be very upset if she broke up with him. How weird is that? I myself had visions of anger and e-mailed her to do it in an open venue. She doesn't really know him and the fact that he is an intelligent person means diddly squat.

I called her first thing *her* morning (time difference) to alleviate my worries. She got my message and they went out for dinner but he didn't take it well to say the least.

THE BEST is yet to come! She apparently likes this other guy who is more her type. She is also good friends with the females in her program and they think this other guy is right for her.

I finally said, "you are there to study, not find a boyfriend." You are all acting like kindergarden children. She agreed, even to the fact that the girls whisper in class, who's dating who?

As I said before, Princess hasn't had a boyfriend in three years, because of her, not so nice, first serious one, but..............

She's so far away, I worry about her perspective.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

FOU


This is the guest of honor at the PUG PARTY. I thought it was Jou, my mistake. His owner made his outfit. Sorry for all you animal rights activists out there but that is REAL leather. You can't see it in the photo but those are rhinestones adorning his cape.
He's only eight weeks old! Oh. My. God. Too cute! He was right in there with the big boys, running and chasing them around the yard.
Rosey's gift was a big hit! He loved it right away.



My f**king camera decided it needed a new battery after this one photo. People there were kind enough to offer to send me pictures so I will share later.

On another note, Rosey was also a big hit. Apparently, the party giver, Verity, was interested in getting Rosey but she lollygagged too long and............que sera, sera.

Interestingly enough, George, Fou's owner, also wanted Rosey and asked me, "how she copes with stairs". I really didn't understand the question because I live three flights up and she does it three times a day. No Problem! Seems that when George went to see her she couldn't make it up the stairs into the breeder's house?? She stopped halfway up, like she was tired or couldn't make it.

When I went to see her, she had no problem with the stairs. As a matter of fact, I don't know if I mentioned this or not, but when we were in the owner's living room, Rosey was on my lap and she peed on me. I went to the bathroom to wipe it of as best as I could and she waited outside the door for me. I fell in love at first site, pee or no pee. She hasn't done it since.
Her owner said she was marking me as hers.

I believe in fate.

It was a wonderful time, so many pugs, nice people.............. but when we got home, Rosey literally ran up the stairs, she was glad to be home. Me too!!

*Home Sweet Home*

PS I forgot to mention she was the only girl there, so much attention from the opposite sex. She actually spent a lot of time under my chair and in my arms to ward of the amorous advances.

HaHa! Don't we all!! Sometimes I wish I had a chair to crawl under. :)

Saturday, October 21, 2006


PUG PARTY

Rosey and I have been invited to a party tomorrow by a lady I met at The House of Dogs. The party is for a friend of hers that just got a pug puppy named Jou. There is only pugs and their owners invited.

I got this present for Jou, it's a pug webkinz. You have to go online and adopt him. Then you are totally responsible for his well being.

I have been invited to a number of parties and events since I came to this city but I usually decline. This one however, is a definite GO. How fun is it going to be, to be around all these adorable creatures. My camera is a must!!

Now, I couldn't very well get this present for someone else and not one for Rosey, could I?

Friday, October 20, 2006

Smart Car

POLLY POCKET
The city I live in is very environmentally conscious. There are a number of these cars on the road but personally I don't like them. There's room for two people to sit but very little else. I have always driven a sports car with no back seat but at least I had a trunk!
Well today I saw a reason to believe why it could be a smart car.


The car was being driven by an older man and his wife beside him. They had to be in there eighties! Their vision when calculating how close to another vechicle they are would not be an issue and parking should be a snap. Also if they hit something or someone, I would think that damage would be at a minimum.

No harm, no foul.

PS They really did look very cute. And safe for all others.

Sunday, October 15, 2006


Oct 15 1917



Dutch spy H21, also known as Mata Hari, is executed in Paris by a 12-man firing squad. The dancer, born Gertrude Zelle, had slept with a number of high-ranking military officers from around the world and passed secrets along to the German high command. After death, her body is given to the University of Paris medical school for dissection.




Mata Hari's body was not claimed by any family members and was accordingly used for medical study. Her head was embalmed and kept in the Museum of Anatomy in Paris, but in 2000, archivists discovered that the head had disappeared, possibly as early as 1954, when the museum had been relocated. Records dated from 1918 show that the museum also received the rest of the cadaver but none of the remains could later be accounted for.

The fact that a former exotic dancer had been executed as a spy immediately provoked many rumours. One is that she blew a kiss to her executioners, although it is more likely that she blew a kiss to her lawyer, who was a witness to the execution and a former lover of hers. Her dying words were purported to be "Merci, monsieur". Another rumour claims that, in an attempt to distract her executioners, she flung open her coat and exposed her naked body.

A 1934 New Yorker article, however, reported that at her execution she actually wore "a neat Amazonian tailored suit, specially made for the occasion, and a pair of new white gloves." A third rumour had it that Mata Hari was unusually composed at the execution, refusing to be tied or blindfolded — and that this is because the firing squad was to be bribed to use blanks for a fake execution, but the plan failed.


"I am ready."

Henry Wales was a British reporter who covered the execution. We join his story as Mata Hari is awakened in the early morning of October 15. She had made a direct appeal to the French president for clemency and was expectantly awaiting his reply:


The first intimation she received that her plea had been denied was when she was led at daybreak from her cell in the Saint-Lazare prison to a waiting automobile and then rushed to the barracks where the firing squad awaited her.
Never once had the iron will of the beautiful woman failed her. Father Arbaux, accompanied by two sisters of charity, Captain Bouchardon, and Maitre Clunet, her lawyer, entered her cell, where she was still sleeping - a calm, untroubled sleep, it was remarked by the turnkeys and trusties.

The sisters gently shook her. She arose and was told that her hour had come.

"May I write two letters"?' was all she asked.

Consent was given immediately by Captain Bouchardon, and pen, ink, paper, and envelopes were given to her.
She seated herself at the edge of the bed and wrote the letters with feverish haste. She handed them over to the custody of her lawyer.

Then she drew on her stockings, black, silken, filmy things, grotesque in the circumstances. She placed her high-heeled slippers on her feet and tied the silken ribbons over her insteps.

She arose and took the long black velvet cloak, edged around the bottom with fur and with a huge square fur collar hanging down the back, from a hook over the head of her bed. She placed this cloak over the heavy silk kimono which she had been wearing over her nightdress.

Her wealth of black hair was still coiled about her head in braids. She put on a large, flapping black felt hat with a black silk ribbon and bow. Slowly and indifferently, it seemed, she pulled on a pair of black kid gloves. Then she said calmly: "I am ready".

The party slowly filed out of her cell to the waiting automobile.
The car sped through the heart of the sleeping city. It was scarcely half-past five in the morning and the sun was not yet fully up.
Clear across Paris the car whirled to the Caserne de Vincennes, the barracks of the old fort which the Germans stormed in 1870.

The troops were already drawn up for the execution. The twelve Zouaves, forming the firing squad, stood in line, their rifles at ease. A subofficer stood behind them, sword drawn.
The automobile stopped, and the party descended, Mata Hari last. The party walked straight to the spot, where a little hummock of earth reared itself seven or eight feet high and afforded a background for such bullets as might miss the human target.
As Father Arbaux spoke with the condemned woman, a French officer approached, carrying a white cloth.

"The blindfold," he whispered to the nuns who stood there and handed it to them.

"Must I wear that?" asked Mata Hari, turning to her lawyer, as her eyes glimpsed the blindfold.

Maitre Clunet turned interrogatively to the French officer.

"If Madame prefers not, it makes no difference," replied the officer, hurriedly turning away. .

Mata Hari was not bound and she was not blindfolded. She stood gazing steadfastly at her executioners, when the priest, the nuns, and her lawyer stepped away from her.
The officer in command of the firing squad, who had been watching his men like a hawk that none might examine his rifle and try to find out whether he was destined to fire the blank cartridge which was in the breech of one rifle, seemed relieved that the business would soon be over.

A sharp, crackling command and the file of twelve men assumed rigid positions at attention. Another command, and their rifles were at their shoulders; each man gazed down his barrel at the breast of the women which was the target.

She did not move a muscle.

The underofficer in charge had moved to a position where from the corners of their eyes they could see him. His sword was extended in the air.

It dropped. The sun - by this time up - flashed on the burnished blade as it described an arc in falling. Simultaneously the sound of the volley rang out. Flame and a tiny puff of greyish smoke issued from the muzzle of each rifle. Automatically the men dropped their arms.

At the report Mata Hari fell. She did not die as actors and moving picture stars would have us believe that people die when they are shot. She did not throw up her hands nor did she plunge straight forward or straight back.

Instead she seemed to collapse. Slowly, inertly, she settled to her knees, her head up always, and without the slightest change of expression on her face. For the fraction of a second it seemed she tottered there, on her knees, gazing directly at those who had taken her life. Then she fell backward, bending at the waist, with her legs doubled up beneath her. She lay prone, motionless, with her face turned towards the sky.

A non-commissioned officer, who accompanied a lieutenant, drew his revolver from the big, black holster strapped about his waist. Bending over, he placed the muzzle of the revolver almost - but not quite - against the left temple of the spy. He pulled the trigger, and the bullet tore into the brain of the woman.

"Mata Hari was surely dead."

Saturday, October 14, 2006


Perfection Personified


Apparently a double curl in a pugs tail is considered so. That's my Rosey! I don't think she could get it tighter. haha

The heat is OVER, thank gawd! Spaying is top of my agenda of things to do. I made lite of it but it really was a pain in the keister. I never want to see kiddies panties again!!

Future chillum...... uh, nope. Sorry!

Speaking of panties

My seven year old neice was up in the city with her dad yesterday. (my brother) He was receiving an award for his work( he's an enviromentalist) and could bring one guest. Maggie, sorry, Maddie it was. :)

She wanted to come and meet Rosey but we had a terrific rain storm and he couldn't make it to my place so they stayed at my sister's. Anyway, they called me that evening and when I was talking to Maddie, she asked me why Rosey wore panties. (I had sent a picture).

She was in heat I responded and um, and um, and another um, I didn't know what the hell to say!

"Was she on her period?" Maddie asked.

Quickly I said, yeah, that's right. Got off the hook on that one, BUT a seven year let me off it!'

I think she set me up!!

Friday, October 13, 2006

SCAM!!!!!


READ CAREFULLY!

I don't how many of you shop at Sam's Club or Costco, but this may be useful to know. I became a victim of a clever scam while out shopping. This happened to me and it could happen to you!!

Here's how the scam works: Two seriously good-looking 23-year-old well-built guys come over to your car as you are packing your shopping in the trunk. They both are shirtless and start wiping your windshield with a rag and Windex, with their highly-defined chest muscles and rock-hard abs exposed.

It's impossible not to look. When you thank them and offer them a tip, they say 'No' and instead ask you for a ride to another Sam's Club or Costco.
You agree and they get in the back seat. On the way, they start talking dirty about what they want to do to you. Then one of them climbs over into the front seat and begins kissing your neck and begs you to pull over so he can make love to you!! While this is going on the other guy steals your purse!!

I had my purse stolen last Tuesday, Wednesday, twice on Thursday, again on Saturday, and also yesterday and most likely tomorrow.

Have a great week-end y'all !!

Monday, October 09, 2006

Michigan J. Frog

You know the frog from the old black & white WarnerBros. cartoons? Singing, Hello my baby, hello my honey, hello my ragtime gallllllllll.............................., he'd only sing for the construction worker and no one believed him. Still with me? Okay then. I feel like that scenario today.

After I came back from my run yesterday, I still wasn't hungry but I tried a slice of turkey and a spoonful of the dressing. The turkey was the best one I have ever, ever cooked. The dressing was divine, I kid you not. The only thing is.......is that I am the only one that knows that and everyone else will just have to take my word for it. They are all out of town, hence my comparison. I don't know why but it just seemed appropiate.

Perhaps because I love that cartoon and Foghorn Leghorn. Also, The Roadrunner, Pluto, and Tweetie Bird. (My bathroom is all done up in Tweetie Bird stuff, shower curtain, floor mat, towels, soap dispenser, and even a BIG Robin Hood Tweety Bird on the top of my toilet tank.
What can I say? I love the classics.

I miss Princess. We talk all the time. She had a wonderful evening last nite at dinner. She really likes her fellow DP's. She's having the Brit over for dinner tonite, she's been to his place a number of times so she is reciprocating.

I'm going down memory lane............( bare with me)

When she was three & one-half years old, her father and I were separating and sat her on the chesterfield to tell her. Later when she was older, she told me she was fine at the time but she was worried who was going to get the computer. She had all her games on it, along with spelling and math programs that I had bought for her.

Another time, a few years later when she was seven, a gentleman friend ( one skiing date) had bought me a Christmas present. I never dated openly around her, only when she was away or at a friends house. I didn't want that "uncle" situation, so she never actually saw anyone. But she had big ears and eyes, and knew this bottle of perfume was from a man.

Anyway, one day shortly after, we were in a department store and she spied the fragrance counter. She went right up to it, spied the exact perfume in the glass counter and boldly asked the lady how much it was . $150.00 the lady responded. After we left the store she turned to me and said, "he must really like you".

This comes from a shy child who wouldn't even buy something from the corner store without me asking. Her class reports were excellent except the remarks, she should interact and speak out more. She told me in later years that she didn't speak out because the conversation wasn't worth it.

Child of mine. :)

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Brains ain't all they're cracked up to be........

I'm really smart but really dumb sometimes. I decided to cook a turkey for Thanksgiving, (I really didn't decide until I went to the grocery store.) I love turkey and got caught up in the moment. Upon reflection, what was I thinking?

A 4.4 kg bird for ONE person. Yup! Go figure, I convinced myself that I could freeze most of it.

Anyway I also bought this prepared fancy cranberry stuffing, which I have never done before. Up at 7 a.m. , walked Rosey, than proceeded to prepare the bird. This time, for the hell of it, I decided to follow instructions that came with it. I grabbed my glasses off the counter, went over to the sink, put them on and everything was dark. What happened to the lights? I then realized I had put on my sunglasses. Yup! In my defense, I was still half asleep. I then added some of my own things to the stuffing like, pine nuts and smoked oysters. (I only trusted that prepared stuff so much.)

I'm not even hungry now and the turkey is done to perfection, I better go for a run to work up an appetite.

Princess is going to a DP(displaced people) :) dinner tonite with her university cohorts.

Oh, she got a job. She is now a barista and has been keeping me in good humor with tales of her job. One customer yesterday, was sticking around the coffee shop until closing time. I jokingly said, "didn't the swish of the mop between her feet give her the hint"?
"No", Princess said, "it didn't"!
She really WAS mopping around her feet and the person paid no attention.
Why are some people so inconsiderate?

Anyway, I'm off for a run...........I wonder what that dressing will taste like? Hmmmmm.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Did You Ever Have, "Just One Of Those Days"


I am so psyched, I found a perfect present today. I was just walking down the street at lunch and a Japanese restaurant nearby has been sold and the new owners are selling off the dishes at ridiculous prices.
I bought soup bowls, rice bowls, tea cups, sushi plates and two saki holders with saki cups. I know I'm not using the right terminology for the dishes but I'm only Canadian. :)

Then I went to a local coffee shop, Tim Hortons, I wanted to try their chili as everyone tells me it's the best. The special included a donut and coffee. I wanted a bagel as I don't like donuts but didn't even get into that and was prepared to pay the difference. The girl said, why don't I just give you that instead of the donut. Was I hearing right?? No fuss no muss? I'm telling you my stars must have been lined up today! I felt like I could take on the world. :)

Getting back to presents, I also found a beautiful Japanese placemat set. (New, at another shop). The placemats are gorgeous but it's the chopsticks and their holders........... they have a pink design with pink rosebud holders. How's that for cute.
I also have bought a really cute Japanese pink kitty cutlery set. Thanks to a fellow blogger, Shigeki, that has one.( d:-o )

Changing the subject, I had an unexpected patient in today. She thought she had an appointment with me but she wasn't on the schedule. She was a bit upset as her appointments have been rescheduled twice now. It turned out fine as I has a father and daughter before her that I finished early with and was able to fit her in. I really like her so I was happy to make her happy. Anyway during the appointment there was a lot of water and I asked her, " do you swallow or spit it out"? She said, "it doesn't matter, I'm easy to get along with". Two seconds later, I cracked up and said , do you realize what I just said? She was laughing so hard she couldn't talk. I wouldn't have said anything if she wasn't cool.

On that note, I hope you have..........one of those days.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Oct 2 1978

Tim Allen is arrested with 1.4 pounds of cocaine at Kalamazoo Airport in Michigan. After testifying against his partner, Allen serves only 2.5 years for felony drug possession. Otherwise, it would have been a life sentence. Tim later becomes a comic, ultimately landing the starring role in the ABC television sitcom Home Improvement.

I knew there was a reason why I didn't like that guy.


Also on this day in history

Oct 2 1985

Homosexual actor Rock Hudson dies of AIDS in his Beverly Hills home.



After Hudson's death, Marc Christian sued his lover's estate on grounds of "intentional infliction of emotional distress." Christian tested negative (and as far as anyone knows is still HIV-free) — but the fact remains that Hudson continued having sex with him for a year after he knew he had AIDS. (So he says, Hudson is dead) Through high-profile attorney Marvin Mitchelson (the plaintiff's lawyer in the 1976 Lee Marvin "palimony" case), Christian sued for $5 million, and ended up with $14.5 million ("Sometimes juries get angry," Mitchelson later remarked).



Lest you applaud Marc Christian as a hero — despite the fact that his suit and subsequent win sent a message to those who might fail to inform partners of their HIV status — keep in mind Christian's apparent internalized homophobia and obvious disdain for the gay community: In 2001, when Larry King remarked that "a lot of people" were mad at Christian when he won his case, Christian replied, "Yeah, especially the gays. ... I found out that I got a lot more vitriolic hatred from liberal gays than I did from conservative straight people. Straight people were great to me, because I think they found themselves in a position of, gee, if my wife or my husband hadn't told me, I'd know how he would feel. ... I think that liberal gays think that if you had AIDS, you couldn't do any wrong. You could go out and infect anyone you want, you're the victim. ... There is this whole victim mentality that we have, not just in the gay world, but in America now, that it's always somebody else's fault. ... A lot of the groups like Lambda, GLAAD, and amfAR, they didn't like me too much.

With an attitude like that, it's easy to see why they didn't.

Too, there is the question of Christian's relationship with Hudson. Hudson"s biographer Sara Davidson, was to have said: "By the time I met Rock... Marc Christian was living in his guest house, and Tom Clark, who had been his lover for many years before, was living in the house, and he — Marc was frozen out, he wasn't allowed to come in the house. He was holding on to his territory. It was a very strange scene."

I knew there was a reason I didn't like that guy.


Anecdote from The Larry King Show interviewing Mitchelson.

KING: You remember, as an onlooker then, Marvin, did you think Rock Hudson was gay? You lived here.

MITCHELSON: I lived here all my life.

KING: You heard the rumors...

MITCHELSON: I heard the rumors, but it just didn't seem like he was.

KING: No one looked less — I don't know if you look gay... Is there such a thing as looking gay?


I knew there was a reason I liked that guy.

Sunday, October 01, 2006

I Knew This Was Going To Happen


Princess is finally settling in to Calgary. She has all her books and furniture, loves her apartment, and is getting to know the city. She has decided to go about things differently this time at school. She never wanted to associate with fellow students socially in her last two programs but being in a new city, she has decided to change her attitude. She has joined a number of associations and has gone to social events organized by fellow PhD students. Eg. pot luck dinners, lunches, etc.

Okay, now at the first pot luck dinner, everyone was joking around and this Brit proposed to her. haha?? Then a few days later he invited her to lunch, on the ruse(just my opinion) that she missed a luncheon they had because of class. Then he invited her over for dinner at his apartment, he made her a veggy bolognese(he's not vegetarian).
He then suggested they take a bus trip to Banff on the week-end.

Now this child of mine, is a child of mine! We see what we want to see and hear what we want to hear. Just friends she told me, okay I replied. I didn't really say that. haha. I asked her if he had a crush on her. NO, she said, we're just friends. Then I said okay. To myself, yeah right!

This morning I asked her how the trip was. Fantastic she said, but.............up on the mountain, on a grassy knoll with the beautiful view below them, they were having lunch and he proceeds to tell her how he feels.
Well, he thinks she's fantastic(right about that) and states his intentions. She listens and puts her reservations out there and then says "we'll see". That was enough for him and she said, you look pretty pleased with yourself. (I guess that itself was sufficient)

I was worried about this because they are in the same program and have to see each other all the time. She is like me and her interest can wane pretty quickly if he doesn't keep up with her.
One thing he has going for him is that he is smart and can keep up intellectually. He's also very sweet she says.

Who know's? He's not even her type physically though from what she's told me. I just don't like the feel of it, she made him promise they would stay friends if it didn't work out. I really hope it does, she deserves someone nice. Too many bad boys out there.
He's twenty-four, she's twenty-two.

Saturday, September 30, 2006

A Deal is A Deal






This morning I went to a store downtown that sells clothes with defects. They are all well know names but have a few flaws. I bought this t-shirt because I thought it was funny, plus it was only $3.00. You have to stand on your head to see
the actual picture and logo. That way I only attract lissome men. haha





I also liked the fact that it said Calgary............... Princess, you know. I also bought some sweatshirts, walking the dog in the morning. She has short hair but it sheds and I don't want that on my good stuff. Rosey likes to be picked up and cradled after all our excursions.

As you can probably tell I am swamped with things to do today, so I best get on with them.
What do I do first? Read a book that has been calling to me all week or watch the rest of I love Lucy. I'm getting a little tired of, dadadadadadadada, the opening music for Lucy so I guess the book it is.

Have a wonderful week-end, no matter what you do, enjoy!





Friday, September 29, 2006

My Rosey is No Lady













But Neither Am I


She burps and farts, but I still love her.
She drinks her water too fast, gets the hiccups, then comes over and burps in my face.

I call her my little tailgater, she's at my heels wherever I go. I can't move without her getting up and running after me.
Last nite she was in her bed snoring to beat the band. I got up and she didn't even hear me, you'd thought she ran a marathon that day she was snoring so loud.
I went over to look at her and there she was, on her back, breasts exposed and her panties dangling around her ankles.
She also licks anything, today I told her when she hopped on my lap, "lips that touch thine, will never touch mine".

But she's MY ROSEY
Everyone should have one :)

Thursday, September 28, 2006

Dumb Blondes

Yesterday I posted a cartoon that was meant to be humorous, upon reflection I think it was not. It was not meant to be offensive but could be perceived that way. I apologize to any who took it as such.

My only excuse is...............

I'm a blonde

I remember a couple of years ago, I was on vacation and visiting my girlfriend from highschool. Her husband is quite a bit older than her and had one of his cohorts over that evening. The gentleman in question repeatedly told dumb blond jokes all evening. (I was the only blond there) Now this guy was married and living with his wife and her girlfriend in the girlfriend's house. Still with me......, okay.
Cuckold is what came to mind but being brought up to respect my elders, I held my tongue,
(-in-cheek).
The girlfriend (not mine, his wife's) is a well know performer and had a lavish home with assets to match.

I really could care less about the jokes but what was he thinking? Just like me, what was I thinking? Dumb Blonde!

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Sep 26 1964

Gilligan's Island premieres on CBS television with the pilot episode "Two on a Raft." This is the one where they almost get off the island.

Speaking of old television shows, I rented the box set of I Love Lucy this week. She was a comedic genius. I'm sitting by myself(with Rosey) and laughing so hard at some of her antics. I don't do that much these days at the stuff they try to pawn off as comedy. I also like the Carol Burnett Show, with Tim Conway and Harvey Korman. There's one show where Conway is on a doorknob, he's a freakin' riot. Apparently he improvised a lot.

Anyhoo... that's my story and I'm stickin to it.
Have a wonderful week. :)

Sunday, September 24, 2006

FALLEN ANGEL


This one of my favorite pictures. I found it online and trying to find an artist to paint it for me.

I love pictures of Angels. Not the doodads available for the collectors but the actual paintings. They are so ethereal and beautiful. This one particular touches me because of all the compartments.

For years now I have compartmentalized all the bad stuff that has happened to me. I mean bad stuff....you know ?
It was a case of survival, deal with it or put it away somewhere where you don't have too. I chose the latter.

Psychiatrist's want to get into your head, get you to deal with it. For some people that may be the way, for others it might be a case of, "let sleeping dogs lie". Dredging up shit that happened years ago could be more harmful then just keeping it somewhere where it doesn't bother you.

Hence the drawers, works for me.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Arrrr...........



I found this book today, what a treasure, yarrrr! :) That is an actual compass in the middle of the picture. I'm going to give it, along with the DVD , Pirates of The Caribbean, Dead Man's Chest, to my 7 year old nephew for his birthday.

The book is so cool, I'd like to keep it for myself. haha
It's pages are old linen like and the book has tons of info on Pirates and their exploits.
There's little envelopes tied with string revealing secrets and maps thruout the book.

Now I just have to get something as cool for his twin sister.


On another note.......

The owner of my building was in my apartment yesterday, about a leak in the downstairs apartment. Nothing in mine....but it was funny because Rosey was running around in pink panties. She was also trying to climb up his legs. Do I mention it or ignore it? The panties I mean. I decided to mention her situation but he acted like he didn't notice, WTF, haha.
He's always on transmit, and doesn't listen to anything but I considered it worth a mention so he wouldn't think I was a crazy lady.

BTW
I just had a vist from my neighbor downstairs and she asked what I was just doing because the leak she was complaining about just happened again...........

I flushed the toilet

Now I have to be conscious every time I flush until Monday. Talk about telling the world your business...... :)

Thursday, September 21, 2006

September 21, 1960

Born Today

A beautiful bouncing baby boy who I only know as Lord Hanuman. May you live long and prosper.
XXXOOO

Also on this day......

Sep 21 1983

Ronald Regan's Secretary of the Interior, James Watt, describes his staff's racial diversity to the U.S. Chamber of Commerce: "We have every mixture you can have. I have a black, a woman, two Jews and a cripple. And we have talent." Watt is forced to resign 18 days later over these comments.

Where was Joan Quigley on that one?

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

CRIKEY

CNN
Reported By Rory Callinan Sept. 04, 2006


This morning, at 11am Australian time, things finally came unglued for the 44-year-old as he was shooting a documentary segment on stingrays. Snorkeling on Batt Reef , a stretch of the Great Barrier Reef about 15km from Port Douglas in North Queensland, Irwin happened to swim over a large ray which, startled, whipped its barbed tail upwards into his chest. He died instantly. Veteran marine wildlife documentary maker Ben Cropp, who has spent hundreds of hours filming on Batt Reef, says Irwin had come too close to a bull ray. Citing a colleague who saw footage of the attack, Cropp says Irwin had accidently boxed the animal in, causing it to attack. "It stopped and twisted and threw up its tail with the spike, and it caught him in the chest," says Cropp. "It's a defensive thing. It's like being stabbed with a dirty dagger." Says Cropp: "It's a one-in-a-million thing. I have swum with many rays, and I have only had one do that to me."

Lived by the sword, died by the sword. That should be his epitaph.

I have seen his show a couple of times and thought, "is this man crazy?"
It's a very sad situation but......... the man did some very stupid stuff. Was he tempting fate or did he think he was invincible?

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Woman's Curse

Poor Rosey is in heat. I didn't want to have her spayed right after I got her because, what kind of trust would we have between us after that. Dog's are in heat for approx. 21 days, her breeder told me. So.......I have her wearing children's panties. I even put half a pantie liner in them. Everyone asks me if I take her out in them. NO! That's just stupid. This morning I called her to come for her walk and she hid behind the living room chair with her head peeking out. She thought that I was going to embarrass her with them on too.

This is all so new to me but as a female, I can certainly relate to her situation. Her breeder brought her up on all natural and organic foods but when I was out yesterday I bought some treats. (All girls like to have forbidden stuff at that time of the month) Wrong.... Rosey threw it up, a half hour after she ate it. Poor mite.

I sent a picture of Rosey in her pink panties to my sister and she said I was mean. "How would you like for me to put a picture of you in your underwear online", she asked. This is a woman who doesn't like dogs but she calls Rosey, poor sweet little thing.

Enough, I will get on to other subjects in the future. Promise. :)

Monday, September 18, 2006

ROSEY











This is my angel.

Rosey is the sweetest dog I have ever encountered. She just wants to love you and lick you to pieces. She is four years old and retired from the business of breeding pups. Now it's her time! I am so lucky to have her and spoil her as she so richly deserves. Being in the baby making business ain't easy. I ran into a woman at the pet store who also had a pug and she asked me if I "crated" her during the day. No, I replied. What does she do then, she asked. ANYTHING she wants, I replied.
I have met so many people since I got Rosey. We walk three times every day. Morning, noon and nite. :) This is funny as I have been so private since I moved here.
I'm out walking and I hear someone shouting "Rosey" all the time.
She snores too...haha

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Nurse Strangles Man Hired to Kill Her
By ANNE M. PETERSON, AP ONLINE

PORTLAND, Ore. (AP) - When Susan Kuhnhausen returned home from work one day earlier this month, she encountered an intruder wielding a claw hammer. After a struggle, the 51-year-old nurse fended off her attacker by strangling him with her bare hands.
Neighbors praised the woman for her bravery, and investigators said they believed the dead man - Edward Dalton Haffey - was burglarizing Kuhnhausen's home. But after an investigation, police now say the intruder Kuhnhausen strangled was apparently a hit man hired by her estranged husband - Michael James Kuhnhausen Sr. - to kill her.

The 58-year-old husband was taken into custody Thursday and charged with conspiracy to commit murder and attempted murder. He was ordered held on $500,000 bail.
Haffey had worked as a custodian under Kuhnhausen at an adult video store, according an affidavit filed by the Multnomah County District Attorney's office.
Kuhnhausen and his wife were in the process of getting a divorce, and she told officers "her husband was distraught about the divorce and wanting to reconcile but that she was insisting on the divorce," the affidavit states.

A background check showed Haffey had served lengthy prison terms for conspiracy to commit aggravated murder and convictions for robbery and burglary.
Inside a backpack Haffey left at the scene was a day planner with "Call Mike, Get letter," scribbled on the week of Sept. 4, the affidavit said. Michael Kuhnhausen's cell phone number was jotted on the inside of a folder, it said.

An emergency room nurse who lives in a southeast Portland neighborhood, Susan Kuhnhausen arrived home on the evening of Sept. 6 to find Haffey coming at her with a claw hammer.
She was struck in the head and wrested the weapon away, but the struggle continued and Haffey bit the nurse, according to police. A large woman, she was eventually able to get the slight Haffey into a chokehold and police later found him dead in a hallway. An autopsy revealed the cause of death as strangulation.

Police say she acted in self-defense....... DUH!!


Talk about a Twist of Fate..............dadadadaa

Friday, September 15, 2006

Sep 15 1885

P.T. Barnum's prize elephant Jumbo, is struck dead by a freight train in St. Thomas, Ontario, Canada. It takes 150 men to haul the carcass up an embankment, from whence it is taken to a taxidermist. The stuffed Jumbo becomes a featured attraction in Barnum's circus.

My sister-in-law is from St. Thomas, she nevered mentioned this little? nugget to me. :)
I wonder what they stuffed him with?

Meanwhile.......... back at the ranch

My little darling Rosey is a sweetheart. She really is a godsend because I miss Princess very much. We talk every day but........................

Actually Rosey (not her fault) is quite a responsibility. I put off having a dog for a while now because of this. The 6:30 a.m., noontime, and after work walkabouts are demanding on my time. It's funny, whenever I saw people walking their dogs and picking up their poop, I thought...........ewwwwww! Now it's my dog and even though it's , well........shit, I don't mind it. I love her and that's what you have to do. I'm worried about the winter, I wouldn't want to put my bottom in the snow to go to the bathroom.

I was at the pet store today and another pug came in. The owner(of the pug) knew someone nearby who had a pug that was Rosey's son. Budha. ( small world) She said that Budha's owner would love to meet Rosey. Rosey doesn't cotton to other pugs, she had enough of them in her life. She was a breeder. The lady asked for my e-mail and I gave it to her. It will be very interesting to see how Rosey responds to Budha.

If I had to rename Rosey, it would be Angel, because that's what she is.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Update on Princess

Day 1
After arriving at noon, met with property manager, got keys. When to check out the locale. Got lost three times, fell and scraped her hands, bruised her body. Dirty and stunk so bad she had to buy a new top. Not a happy camper, says the place is spread out like Mississauga or Scarborough. Ewwwwww!

Day 2
Went to the university to get transit pass, still trying to get a fix on the place. Hates it, says the place is a nightmare, highways and biways. Yuck!

Day3
Calls me from Walmart, says she has been waiting for an hour for a taxi. She will call me tomorrow.

Day 4 (Saturday)
Says she had a good day yesterday. Went to orientation a.m., lunch afterwards. Veggie burgers all gone, wants to leave, fellow students convince her to stay. Have a salad they say. Stays and mingles , everyone deciding to go to a pub that evening. She says she doesn't think so, again they say come on. After Walmart, (1 1/2 hours later) she gets home and goes to the pub. Thank Gawd!! She really enjoys herself, getting to meet the others in her program, apparently the university has allowed for more Ph D students this year than ever before.

Found a district that is called Kensington, sorta' like Queen St W. Happy about that!
All in all, getting used to a new city is overwhelming, hopefully it will be okay soon.

Oh yeah, about the taxi service, her taxi driver told her most of the taxi drivers live in the Northeast, (she lives in the Northwest) and they all go home for dinner at 5:00 P.M. That was when she was calling. Go figure that one out???

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

BooHoo

Princess left for Calgary this morning. We were up at 4 a.m., flight left at 7:00 a.m. For the first time ever I stayed and watched the plane take off from the observation deck. This was a significant moment as I am usually out the airport doors as soon as the person I am seeing off has checked their baggage.
She got a call friday afternoon about an apartment she had applied for online. It's right near the university and we got to see it on the management's website. Cool! That was a close call for us.

If you haven't guessed it yet, Princess is my daughter. I had her when I was a teenager and we are closer than two friends could ever be. I remember when I was in university, she was six and used to write me notes saying, "have a good day, mommy". When she got a little older she told me she used to wonder why my school was so intense when I was only studying "signs". (stop, go, yield)
With my Cape Breton accent that's how I pronounced "science".

She fast tracked high school, got her honors degree in two and a half years and her masters in one. Am I a proud mother................YEAH!

Hence......... Rosey. When I got home from the airport this morning feeling numb and quite despondent, I opened up my door and Rosey jumped right into my arms. Squealing with delight at the sight of me, just what the doctor ordered.
I will post a picture of her shortly so you can see what a cutie she is.

Halifax.......do I really want to make it my home now?????

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Plea for help

I have mentioned Princess a number of times on my blog so I'm going to assume that you know who I am talking about. Getting an apartment in Calgary is very difficult when you don't live there. With the time difference , any apartment she calls about is already gone. There are plenty of basement apartments but that is not what she wants or feels is safe. Finding a place to stay for a couple of weeks until she can find one is also hard. Does anyone have any suggestions?

On another note, I have a new addition to my household. Her name is Rosey (nee Rosehip). Her breeder calls all her dogs for herbs and spices. When I was on the phone with her discussing adoption, Princess said I sounded rude when told her name. ROSEHIP I repeated into the phone, sounding like I had just tasted something bad. Anyway, Rosey is an absolutely adorable pug. She is 4 years old and is the sweetest thing I have ever seen. All she wants is to lick your face and be loved. She has become quite attached to me in just 3 days. She follows me everywhere and snuggles up whenever I sit down. She is so funny, I love her. I was told that people with funny personalities get along with pugs the best. She constantly makes me laugh with her antics. I don't even mind the poop and scoop! THAT and the 6am walk I thought I could never do. It's funny, people are attracted to her on our walks and I find myself engaging in conversations that I would never normally have.

I would appreciate any info on how to find a place in NorthWest Calgary besides the local newspapers. Residence is not an option as her furniture has already been shipped.
Here's hoping. :)

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Today is going to be a frivolous day

To start, with no further ado........

Aug 10 1966

Last words of James French, sent to the Electric Chair by the state of Oklahoma: "How about this for a headline for tomorrow's paper? FRENCH FRIES."


Continuing on............

A young Navy Officer was in a bad car accident, but due to the heroics of the hospital staff the only permanent injury was the loss of one ear. Since he wasn't physically impaired he remained in the military and eventually became an Admiral. During his career he was always sensitive about his appearance.

One day the Admiral was interviewing three Master Chiefs for the Command Master Chief position.

The first Master Chief was a Surface Navy type and it was a great interview. At the end of the interview the Admiral asked him, "Do you notice anything different about me?

"The Master Chief answered, "Why yes. I couldn't help but notice you are missing your starboard ear, so I need to know whether this impacts your hearing on that side." The Admiral got very angry at this lack of tact and threw him out of his office.

The next candidate, a Aviation Service Master Chief, when asked this same question, answered, "Well yes, you seem to be short one ear." The Admiral threw him out also.

The third interview was with an Submarine Master Chief. He was articulate, extremely sharp, and seemed to know more than the other two Master Chiefs put together. The Admiral wanted this guy, but went ahead with the same question, "Do you notice anything different about me?"

To his surprise the Submarine Master Chief said, "Yes. You wear contact lenses."

The Admiral was impressed and thought to himself, what an incredibly tactful Master Chief. "And how do you know that?" the Admiral asked.

The Submarine Master Chief replied, "Well it's pretty hard to wear glasses with only one fucking ear."

Have a great day. :)

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Aug 9 1997

Officers of Brooklyn's 70th precinct sodomize 30 year old Haitian immigrant Abner Louima with a toilet plunger, then insert the feces-contaminated plunger into Louima's mouth. Later, NYPD officials try feebly to dismiss the suspect's injuries as having resulted from ordinary homosexual activity, but a medical examination proves that to be inconsistent with the evidence.

It has to be the uniform that makes these people feel invincible. The power they feel when they don it, similar to soldiers in war zones. I realize it must be only the sick and demented that allow these actions of depravity to take hold of them ??

The officers responsible were Justin Volpe,Thomas Bruder, Charles Schwurz, Michael Bellomo and Thomas Wiese.


Follow Up

Behind the BLUE WALL...life of a NY cop

New York Times
Metro Briefing New York: Louima Begins Philanthropic Work In Homeland

Published: February 26, 2003
Five years after the assault by New York police officers that led to a $5.8 million settlement, Abner Louima is back in Haiti, his impoverished homeland. In recent visits, Mr. Louima, 36, who now lives in Florida, said he had started paying tuition for 14 poor children and set up a nonprofit group, the Abner Louima Foundation. He said he also hoped to raise money to build a community center and a hospital.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Today I just found out by accident(surfing), that someone I was quite fond of is dead. I never met him, only talked over the telephone, read his letters and e-mails to my friend. Always sending his fondest regards to me thru her. I had the greatest admiration for his wit and humor and just the slightest crush because of this.
My friend Janet had been his literary agent in England and they always kept in touch. I have one of his books Bedlam, signed with an endearing note.
John died April 11, 2005 of acute pancreatitis.
I haven't spoken with Janet for over six years due to a situation that I couldn't forgive her.
It involved the murder of a man, leaving 2 small children and her befriending the woman I held responsible for his death.
Janet is quite a lot older than me and has taught me things about life that I never would have experienced myself.
I'm just very sad right now.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Wow, over a week since I wrote anything. Time flies when you're having fun. I have two house guests which have been taking up my time. Princess, who has moved in until she goes to Calgary and Darkstar for two weeks while her owners are away.

I realized that when living alone you get into very selfish routines. Some not always good. With myself, I have become somewhat of a hermit. Not anymore.......

This is the first time in my life that I have ever lived alone and thought I loved it?? Having Princess here has been a great change for the better. We go out shopping, eating, drinking, and then come home to chat, watch a movie, whatever. Waking up in the morning and laughing over coffee. Just being happy and laughing a lot is wonderful.

Now Kitty is not the same shy kitty that was with me 3 months ago. She arrived by carriage, with bag and litter box (in someone else's hand) and immediately made herself at home. She even brought along her own hacienda. Some tubular structure that has 2 levels, 2 self-contained compartments , covered with carpet. Quite the drum.
I didn't see that one comin'.
Okee........... it took George 4 trips to bring in all her stuff. She has also gotten very saucy. I was told to give her ONE treat a day. (I confess to overindulging her last visit).
Her first nite with me, I picked her up to snuggle(after a treat) and when I put her down she swiped my leg with her paw. Not nice.
Today I refused her demand for a treat and when I left her in the kitchen, she started banging the cupboard door open and shut with her paw. (For quite a while I might add).

This might seem like blattering to you, but it is quite a revelation to me. I will miss my little family when they leave.


PS
Holy Shit!!!

I just went to pet HELLCAT (which she has now been offically christened), and she literally nailed me. My finger is bleeding! She was lying on my bed and I innocently went over to pet her. I don't think she will be receiving another invite. I might like company BUT I'm not a sadist.
What the hell happened in 3 months?? She comes from a loving family.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

Blogging

I heard about blogging but didn't really know what it was about. I accidently came across one in my internet travels. I found the blogger interesting and responded. (although somewhat cranky, the blogger). During that time I came across other bloggers who I found intelligent and funny. I decided to create a blog myself, which I enjoy.

The thing is, is that the bloggers that I enjoy happen to be gay males. Am I a fag hag? That term alwaysed seemed to have such a negative connotation, I tend to shy away from it.

1. Some would say that fag hags are pitied based on the assumption that their fascination with gay men lies in infatuation, which will most likely never be consummated. While this is occasionally true, most fag hag relationships contain no romantic feelings; indeed, some fag hags are lesbian.

2. This relationship, like most positive relationships, generally evolves out of shared interests and opinions. It offers heterosexual women an opportunity to participate in a gay community where arts, fashion, and literature are embraced and encouraged.

3. The gay community also offers straight women a safe environment to party in relative freedom from unwanted sexual advances.

None of these really pertain to me except the freedom from unwanted sexual advances, at this time in my life. I escaped from a relatively long relationship (8 yrs), very abusive and volatile. I even have to have my phone and address under another name for my safety. Do I want another man in my life now? Definitely not. I am just enjoying the peace and quiet that life allows me.

Getting back to blogging, I really enjoy having contact with people that are intelligent, funny, witty, informative, and enlightening. The fact that they are gay, well............. suits me just fine!
I just hope that they accept me for me.

Friday, July 14, 2006

That's What Friends Are For

Dionne Warwick got it right!

Keep smilin' keep shinin'
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times I'll be on your side forever more
Ohh That's what friends are for

I came back from my holiday early because Princess was going away on holiday and needed someone to be at her apartment for the movers today. She's going to Calgary for her graduate studies. Up at 5 A.M. like a trooper, to be at her place to make sure everything is in order. The movers were great, small but wirey. I didn't think they could handle the heavy boxes, neither one of them was over 5'6" and 120 lbs soaking wet, but............you can't judge a book by it's cover. They were Mighty Men!!! Superman could take tips. HeHe.
Talking about books, her estimate for the poundage in moving is way more than she thought.
$1000.00 more. And it's all her freakin' books that caused it. Oh well, who can put a price on one's addiction. Certainly not me. I'll give her the bad news when she gets home. She's now on the beach in Tobago enjoying herself and hopefully she has a cute cabana boy catering to her every need.

I also have to keep on top of her laptop that she had to send to Texas to be repaired. They're a bitch to get a hold of. Good luck to me! :)

She has this 2' by 3' board to make notes on. Typical, she has it bordered in pink satin and white tulle. I wasn't being nosey, I was just wondering if they would take it because it wasn't boxed.
She had her new budget written on it. Check this out!!

Rent............... Whatever
Groceries....... $ 100.00/mth
Necessities.......$ 100.00/mth
Frivolities.........$100.00/week

I don't know if that was a typo, but it was written by hand. :)

I love her dearly, and she was there for me many times when I needed her, so as Dionne says.....................

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

I so, so love Dan Savage XXXOOO

Dear Dan,

I love my husband so, so much. He's so, so good to me. But there's another man I'm so, so attracted to. I don't want to jeopardize my marriage but I'm afraid I might in a moment of weakness. At the same time, I don't want to give up the activity where I see this other man, because the activity (martial-arts study) is a really important part of my life.

So, So Married

Reply

Hm. You can't stop seeing this other man because you study martial arts with him and that's such an important part of your life—unlike, say, your marriage—and as everyone knows there's only one martial-arts school on the whole freakin' planet. So you're pretty much condemned to spend time with this other man until the inevitable inevitability inevitably happens.

Puh-leeze, SSM. If your husband doesn't rate the supreme sacrifice of switching to some other martial-arts school, then nothing I can say is going to stop you from getting what you so, so desperately want. But after you fuck this other guy, SSM, don't run around pretending that you were just a victim of cruel circumstance—martial arts made me do it!—and not the so, so guilty instigator.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Jul 11 1945
For the first time, Napalm powder is mixed with gasoline and sprayed on live human beings. This feat is achieved by U.S. Army forces against the Japanese on Luzon in the Philippines.
In grand Internet tradition, I now give you the recipe to produce this horrible substance: Take styrofoam, add benzene and gasoline; ignite; pour on [insert ethnic slur here].

Kim Phuc June 1972

"The Girl In The Photo", was accidentally burned by her own countrymen, who were fighting her future countrymen.The only American participants of any nature were the journalists who reported the event and made her famous, and the doctors who saved her life.
If left to the care of her countrymen it is unlikely that the little girl would have lived to market forgiveness to anyone. But American doctors saved her and Americans made her famous enough to forgive them for an accident in which no American participated.

When the photo was taken and first published, the truth was published with it. It was an all-Vietnamese accident, at a time when American soldiers had been withdrawn almost completely from participation in ground action. Peter Arnett, Fox Butterfield, and Christopher Wain were three who independently reported on the incident at the village of Trang Bang, when it happened in 1972. Their news reports showed it to be an accidental bombing by the Vietnamese Air Force, during an all-Vietnamese fight. The other reports of the time said the same and film footage taken that day clearly shows a Vietnamese Air Force Skyraider making a highly photogenic low level run, dropping four canisters of napalm with the journalists and South Vietnamese soldiers standing on the road near the village as spectators. The film depicts a casual group, not seeking shelter from either the aircraft or enemy fire, and almost makes it appear that the bomb run was made for the benefit of the film crews.

Somehow, talking about my holidays (which I initially intended to do) seems ludicrous.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

I could read this how about you?

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The really scary part is that I didn't hesitate anywhere, just read along like I normally do. :)

Holidays

Heading down to The Cape tomorrow, Breton not Cod, for two whole weeks. Yeah!! Just to be fair, Cape Cod is lovely, it actually reminds me of Cape Breton. The drive to Hyannis is route 6 from Sandwich I think, and in Cape Breton it's route 4. They feel very similiar, quiet, beautiful and untouched. It was weird driving down that road, knowing that JFK drove down it many times to go home.

You can go home again, it's just not the same.

My father died when I was very young and our (6 siblings) mother was all we had. She was our matriarch, our anchor. We lost her almost four years ago and things will never be the same. Memories are all we have, and she left us wonderful ones. It really makes you realize the fragility of life when you lose someone that is such an important part of your being. Remember, every day you make memories for someone and that's all they will have of you when you are gone.

Oh yeah, holidays, sorry I got melancholy for a bit. :(

We have a few rules, one of which is no computers allowed. DVD'S ARE!!! It's so funny, we all get up at different times and the early birds usually watch a movie in our jammies, before breaky, in the den adjoining the kitchen. When the stragglers start to arise and want to talk, all they get is SHHHHHHH!!!!!! It totally pisses them off and it's always the same ones. Needless to say, I am not one of them. :) It's usually the kiddies and the kids at heart that are up early.
Then we get on to doing really boring stuff like going to the beach all day, swimming, windsurfing, waterskiing, scuba diving, boat cruises, building sand castles. Then coming home to eat lobster, steak,veggies(we have a few vegetarians), bar-b-que whatever, drink gallons of wine and beer. It's rough I'll tell ya!

You can't go home again to what it was but you can go home and make the best of what it is.
Everyone, enjoy all your holidays. :)

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Jun 18 1959
Based on his erratic behavior, the Governor of Louisiana, Earl K. Long, is committed to a state mental hospital. Long responds by arranging for the hospital's director to be fired, and the new director proclaims him perfectly sane. (It is no secret that the man was completely nuts.)

I don't know about you but I find this extremely funny. His wife, known colloquially as Miz Blanche, had him committed after finding out about his affair with stripper Blaze Starr. (Remember Paul Newman).

Long left Blaze $50,000 in his will she refused to accept. Ain't love grand.


Mixed Feelings

Princess and I started watching Six Feet Under last year. We were hooked. She would download it as I don't have cable. (I don't watch enough TV to warrant it). She left the DVD at my place and I watched an episode without her. WRONG MOVE!! I fessed up and after that she didn't share her downloading again. I broke a cardinal rule and suffered in silence.
Anyhoo, after six months went by I decided to rent the box set, starting with season four. Then yesterday I got season five and Princess told me she didn't watch the last episode. I was so excited as we both loved the show so much and we were going to be able to share the ending.

I loved all the characters, Keith and David were my favorites though, especially Keith, he was so supportive. I know it was an appropriate ending as the show dealt with death, but.............................. I found it, a bit disconcerting. I actually felt nauseous for a few moments.

On a lighter note, at the end when they were all dying and they showed Brenda, I said to Princess, wow she really let herself go. (Remember I was watching the whole season in one day) Princess says, what do you expect she's over eighty. Remind me not to get old around you.
In my defense, her hair was long and scraggly.

Th..th...th...that's all folks. Enjoy your week. :)

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Jun 10 1999
Outside on the front lawn of his Miami home, Russell Cameron is covered with trash and doused with gasoline. Then his lunatic nephew, Thomas Pellechio, sets the pile on fire and runs away. When police arrive, they discover a 12.5 inch Oriental sword in Cameron's rectum, rammed in all the way up to the hilt.

Ouch!! It is rumored that Pellechio was sexually abused by his uncle. He is found lying on the ground next to the church, screaming that he was possessed by the devil and needed help. If true, he was possessed by the devil all right......... his uncle.

In a small community where I was born, there was an incident, similiar, fire and revenge was involved. A pedophile priest lived in the nearby glebehouse. Late one night, a molotav cocktail was thrown thru the window. It destroyed the building but not the person inside. Dam!!
It was done by a young man who had hatred in his heart because of the abuse he suffered from this priest as a child.

This is a depressing story as there were a number of pedophile priests who darkened our doors. Being a rural area, it was a haven for them to do as they wished.
My older brothers were very lucky, the priest we had, during their time as alterboys, was a ladies man! He was contankerous and edgy, and they thought he was "a pain the ass" . Little did they know. He used to cuff them on the ear if they didn't ring the bell at the right time. He also drank. I'd take that anyday over what could have been.

Epilogue

The priest designed a new beautiful building, with walk around decks on the main floor and the second story, overlooking the Bras d'Or Lakes. Breathtaking, more like a chalet then a humble cottage. (At the parishoners expense).
He now writes books and is not a parish priest anywhere. (Not in jail either).

The young man who set the fire.........was found guilty of arson.

The parish.....glad to be rid of him, no matter what the cost. They now have a priest, Fr. Joe, who is, how shall I say.......... absolutely wonderful. In the true sense of the word.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Jun 7 1954
Despondent over court-ordered estrogen treatments to cure his homosexuality, Alan Turing commits suicide by consuming an apple laced with cyanide. Turing is considered the founder of modern computing, a pioneer in the field of Artificial Intelligence, and a crucial member of the team that cracked Germany's Enigma cipher in World War ll.

It is rumoured that this method of self-poisoning was in tribute to Turing's beloved film Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs.

Since 1966, the Turing Award has been given by the Association for Computing Machinery to a person for technical contributions to the computing community. It is widely considered to be the equivalent of the Nobel Prize in the computing world.


Hmmmmmmmm..................Apple Computer, Inc.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Jun 5 1975
During the Wish You Were Here recording sessions, Syd Barrett just happens to wander into Abbey Road studio while Pink Floyd are mixing "Shine On You Crazy Diamond," a song written about Barrett. At first, none of Syd's former bandmates recognizes the fat, bald lunatic who is compulsively brushing his teeth.

Happenstance, perhaps........

Barrett's trademark was playing his Fender Esquire guitar by sliding a zippo lighter up and down the fret-board thru an old echo box to create the mysterious, otherwordly sounds that became associated with the group.

Today
He is apparently not happy being reminded about his past as a musician and the other members of Pink Floyd have no direct contact with him. However, he did go to his sister's house in 2002 to watch the BBC Omnibus documentary made about him - apparently he found some of it "too noisy", though he's said to have enjoyed hearing "See Emily Play" again.

I went to a Pink Floyd concert at the CNE a number of years ago with my then boyfriend. We were in the press section beside the stage, excellent view. I was not familiar with their music but went because I thought he was. Halfway thru, he asked me if I was enjoying myself. Not really, I responded, how about you? Not really he said, I thought you liked them. We laughed and said "we're outta' here". Sorry Pink Floyd.

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Jun 4 1939
After already having been turned away by Cuba, the SS St. Louis is also denied permission to land in Florida. So it is forced to return to Europe with its cargo of 963 Jewish refugees, most of whom will later die in Nazi concentration camps.

God Bless America.......
I wonder what Canada would have done?

Death is Inevitable

Every person who smokes, is going to die. Every person who never smokes, is going to die.

Every person who is "overweight", is going to die. Every person who is never "overweight", is going to die.

Every person who uses illicit drugs, is going to die. Every person who never uses illicit drugs, is going to die.

Every person who drinks alcohol, is going to die. Every person who never drinks alcohol, is going to die.

Every person who fails to heed the advice of health advocates, is going to die. Every person who devotedly follows all the advice of health advocates, is going to die.

It's all a matter of time. What we do with that time, interim, is our choice.

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Jun 3 1943
Three days after a sailor had been badly injured in a brawl with a group of Hispanics, a mob of 60 servicemen leaves the Los Angeles Naval Reserve Armory and bludgeons anybody wearing a zoot suit. The first two victims are a couple of boys, aged 12 and 13, who were just sitting in the Carmen Theater watching a movie. Thus begins a weeklong race riot.

Why is it that when some men/women put on a military uniform they feel they are above the law. They are encouraged to be that dark side of themselves that is not acceptable in a normal environment. Demeaning, debasing, torturing fellow human beings. Psychological warfare is their defense?

On a Much Lighter Note

I saw a picture of Hugh Hefner celebrating his 80th birthday with his three girlfriends. Is it just me or do his girlfriends get less attractive as he gets older? Sure, they got the hair and the silicone bods, but their faces. Somehow horses come to mind.

I wonder if they do paper, scissors, rock.... to see who has to sleep with him that nite?

Friday, June 02, 2006

Jun 2 2003
Thousands of defeated Iraqi troops marched on U.S. occupation headquarters in Baghdad, demanding to be paid. It is perhaps the first time in history a defeated army has demanded payroll from the victors.

WTF
They must have gotten the US confused with Canada, you know what suckers we are for being politically correct. Canada would say, oh we're so sorry, how much do you want.


Spoke with my oldest sister today. She's a nurse in Nfld. I told her about fat bastard and she said good riddance, he would only be a troublemaker anyway. She shed a new light on the situation and I realized that it was a good thing it happened the way it did. He can be someone else's lawsuit!

On a lighter note, I bought a fantastic new camera and I am going to use it to explore Halifax. I hated this place when I moved here but now I am determined to discover everything about it.

So get ready for a virtual reality tour of Halifax folks. :)